“I am not a saint, unless you think of a saint
as someone who keeps on trying.” -Nelson Mandela
The WordPress Daily Prompt: Share something you love about yourself–don’t be shy, be confident!–but that few other people know about you or get to see very often.
There has been since childhood an insatiable curiosity running in my veins. About all the various faiths and Gods, the Universe, people, history, technology, other cultures, how things are made and work, how far I can push my skill levels, love, exploring the planet, …oh there is no limit to where, who, and what can catch my spirit of inquiry and raise me up, carry me off to levels of understanding and knowledge of such value, or perhaps toss me down flat to suck mud.
I have also been fortunate to have been born with an extraordinary amount of resiliency. A good thing too, because during adolescence through my early adulthood, the time period when my insatiable curiosity was partnered with immaturity, naivety, bad intel, fears, poor advice, no supervision, insecurity, and scant little life experience, my curiosity often manifested itself in what Aunt Eleonore referred to as,
“Dancing In The Devil’s Kitchen.”
This beloved gift of resiliency has led me out from: homelessness, heart-break, bad teeth, grinding poverty, dropping out of high-school, being financially ruined, too many moves, junk vehicles, slash and burn surgery, betrayals, concussions, familial shunning, a hit and run…….all mud sucking quicksand.
Any one or combination of these glimpses of my bad choices, circumstances, and their consequences could have put my body and spirit down, emotionally and mentally broke me, never to be surmounted and leading to a further downward spiral.
But Always The Inner Knowing that no matter how awful the moment, decision, consequences, or circumstances were, that they absolutely did not define me or have control over the rest of my life. I called it a survival instinct. I knew I could get out, over, and above the bad times. Now I recognize it as resilience.
I learned that if I genuinely will commit to a goal, pray with my feet and hands, make every effort to do better, to being a positive participant on the planet, that my curiosity and resilience will thrive in beneficial ways. When I commit to good, the Universe/God will show up and assist me, obstacles will fall away, and support shows up in ways that delight and energize.
Curiosity and resilience partnering with an ever growing faith has resulted in my flying airplanes, looking migrating whales in the eye, the best marriage to a kind man, crewing a twin masted schooner, a comfortable home, great smile, ability to support issues I believe in, interesting challenging employment, a college degree, economic solvency, JoHannaMassey.com, Grandchildren!, physical strength/health, global travel, loyal friends, giving and receiving love, joyful retirement, and complete confidence that each day holds the potential for unlimited possibilities, knowledge, and adventure.
I make every effort to keep out of mud sucking quicksand. I also know that there are never any guarantees that life won’t toss me in once again without my consent or fore knowledge. I’ll have my curiosity, my resiliency, waterproof boots, and my faith on the ready. Grateful to have them.
Peace and Blessings.
Todays Music: Joni Mitchell- Hejira